June 23, 2012
“Every wound is a call to heal.
You deserve to live and be fully expressed.”
~ Cynthia Jam
Ah, so last Sunday, I’d just started a couple wash loads at the laundr0mat and returned home to do some chores. As I was doing dishes, I also cleaned up some items for the recycling bin.
Oops, where did the lid from the canned chicken come from hiding in the soaping water of another food container? Well, as the rubber met the road or in this case the tin can lid met my index finger, I knew I was in trouble.
Skipping forward several hours, while waiting for and after getting the needed stitches, I went through the usual berating myself for my carelessness (“How stupid…”) and dealing with the logistics (getting someone to pick up my laundry; getting someone else to take care of my 13-yr. old doggie baby Heidi while I was at the hospital; and so on)…
Later Sunday night and for a period on Monday night, I had a crying jag because I was so mad at myself in general & because I’d been yelling at Heidi, who was expressing her concern for me by overdoing her usual “velcro dog” behaviors!
Ok, that’s the prelude. If you are still with me here, I’m wondering if any of you can relate? Probably not–I’m the only person who is this hard on myself, right?
I’m the only person ever who has ever yelled at the dog who just wants to be close to me because she thinks that will make me feel better, right? I’m the only person who knows in her head that this is another opportunity to heal at a deeper level but the gut level hasn’t gotten the message yet, right?
That aside, several days later, now I am back on track–mostly! I am meditating and journaling and giving myself Reiki and tapping (EFTing) and feeling GRATEFUL for another opportunity to go deeper in the spirals of healing.
If the Universe and I didn’t work together to create ongoing opportunities to help me heal, where would I be? Maybe stuck in a pit of self-pity and frequently yelling at my dear, sweet Miss Heidi.
During this lifetime I am here to heal, and GRATITUDE is my spiritual practice to that end. Yes, I am healing and I am GRATEFUL. And, it still hurts, but so it is. 🙂
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